Hello all. ~~
I'm still here. Thank you so much for all the sweet comments during my absence. We had to regroup in some ways. Our daughter did suffer a bit of a setback and it shook her confidence. We spent a very long time in recovery mode. We've changed the way we do some things. We even had her take a full month off from school - with her doctor's blessing.
Finding the center again when it can look different than it did before.
We are ok now. She is ok. I think her confidence in her body, her mind, even her medications is still shaken ~ but that is a normal reaction for someone in her situation. But for now, she is medically stable and that is a blessing.
You know, I am pretty good about not having a "why me" attitude about life. I truly see troubles and trials as part of our process here and I don't see any of us as being somehow above that. It's not too difficult for me to not have thoughts of "this isn't fair," and things like that. Maintaining this mindset has been for me...fairly easy throughout my life. It's not ever been too difficult for me to know that if I'm suffering in some way...that is just life. It has it's highs and lows, it's good and bad.
I have learned over the past few years that it can be a bit more difficult to maintain my grasp on that attitude when it's my child who is the one who is suffering instead of me. I'm not proud of it, but on occasion through this, I have had my thoughts of "this is not fair," and "why her?" She is such a good and beautiful soul and this world is a better place with her in it. So why must her plate be so full that she has to spend all of her time simply balancing the things that are on them and not contributing to the world in the ways that she wants to?
Shove out those thoughts. There isn't any room for them.
We take it one day at a time around here. We have learned that is best.
Thank you for hanging in here with me. I do appreciate it.
We are ok ~ and I will try to write more here soon.
Hugs from me to you. ~~